random fact

i wear muh red boots at least once a day

they make me happy

nuff said

slow dancing in a burning room

i hear that song about 45 times a day
its an involuntary action that i am trying to shake
going there, to look at things, to read things.
i am trying to shake it.
i hear that this is a "have it your way" sorta thing,
if that were so, let me paint you a picture
so, here's the thing
the way i'd have it, is to never have a day of fear
to never have a day of worry, of scattered brains
to never go a day feeling a longing for something i cant have
never experience sadness, or dissapointment.
if things were the way i wanted them
maybe they wouldnt be the same as they were,as they have been, oh
but
you have your point
but
it wouldnt be like this
i'm just trying to shake it.
my head tells me one thing, my heart sorta agrees
what do i want, to i truly want to fade away?
do i want you to forget?
for forever, for a season, for tonight?
i cant decide, i never have wanted to decide
but maybe it was about time i made a decision...
one day, when i grow up, big and strong,
i'll remember you, i'll remember this
but not as a memory, as a reminder
of what it is like to have loved and to have lost.
i'll tell my daughter who will tell her friends who will tell their boyfriends, and friends
tell them to love with all they have
always expect the best out of people.
listen and watch with a careful eye and ear when people show you who they are.
speak your mind and love jesus.
then
i will remember you.
it's not easy to shake
it's a srtuggle to try and shake it
but i feel it happening.
whether i move or not, my body seems to vibrate
shakin shakin
feelings roll down my eyes, clear down my cheeks and curve round my neck
down off my shoulders go the memories
out of my hands go the things i once held onto, so strong were my fingers
tight hold
oh no, i see scars and blisters now, where those things have left their mark.
c'mon jesus, patch me up, give me stitches
it'll hurt for a little while, but pretty soon i'll be healed up real nice
"slow dancing in a burning room" he says.
i will always think of you when he says those words
will you think of me
i'm just trying to shake this, burning room i'm in.
dance with me, slowly, please?

Now, thats what i'm talking bout!

wordy wordy
words words words and...
somemore words
smart words
simple words
oh so wordy using all these wordy words.

Today...

i as provoked to start blogging again, on mulitple occasions, and thus i took it as a sign.
work was fine today, spent most of it alone, which was peacful but got hectic when people wanted to all be specific with their coffees...

+what a society we have today, where people are more specific about thier coffee drinks, then choices in mates...
+what a society we have today, where 7 year old girls walk in, ordering a cappuccino *dry (which means with extra foam) what ever happened to the myth that coffee stunted your childrens growth!

anyways, enough about that and work...

lately been experiencing some little changes and some big changes.
change is good sometimes and trust me, i embrace it when i need to.
but nonetheless, change is inevitable...

1. aaron moves back to oklahoma
2. started a new job
3. actually have money now
4. going to a new church
5. met some new folks in fernindina (gonna hang soon hopefully)
6. became closer with old friends
7. started drinking loose leaf teas
8. started doing my schooling on my own
9. new house started being built

so on and on i shall type, and let it be known, i am excited for what the near future brings for me, truly, i feel like i have "turned a new leaf" and i am....
one step closer to being the woman God made out for me to be.
one step closer to Hillsong College.
one step closer to being done with highschool.
one step closer to being able to play piano and sing on a stage again.
one step closer to feeling loved to the ultimate capacity.
one step closer to experiencing the life that is planned for me.

I AM THRILLED (for all those things) SLEEPY (right now) HUNGRY (for sweet tomatoes dinner) EXCITED (for this weekend) and READY (to thrive)

upscrates

havent been able to log on to my blog for a while for some reason, didnt think i was this attached, but i guess i am...

i'll be back and type type typin soon.
my online diary of sorts

go blogging.